I’M VERY GREATFUL TO HAVE MY REAL DAD BACK IN MY LIFE

I’M SO  GRATEFUL  TO  HAVE   MY  REAL  DAD  BACK  IN MY  LIFE  AND  IM GREAT  THAT ME AND HIM  ARE  REALLY  ARE  AND I WOULD  LOVE  TO   TELL EVERYONE  HOW MUCH  I LOVE MY  DAD AND MY STEP  MOM  THEY  ARE  WHILING  TO HELP ME OUT ON GETTING  CUSTODY  OF MY SON, AND  I CANT  WAIT  TO HAVE HIM  BACK  THAN  I CAN BE DONE  WITH  HIS DAD AND FAMILY  FOR  GOOD, EVERYDAY IS  A  HARD TIME  I FEEL LIKE IM  A PUPPET  ON A STRING  WITH  HIS DAD AND FAMILY…. GOD  IM   SO  TIRED OF  BEING LIKE A PUPPET ON  A  STRING  WITH HIS FAMILY   ALL I WANT DO  IS BE FREE AND  LIVE MY  LIFE  WITH  LUKE AND  BE  FREE  AND  FLY  FREE  FROM HIS  DAD AND FAMILY, IM SO TRIED OF CRYING  MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERYTIME.

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ITS ALMOSTED CHRISTMAS TIME

WELL ITS ALMOSTED  THAT  TIME OF THE  YEAR  WHERE  PEOPLE  DANCE  AND SING  AND  PUT THEIR  TREES UP  WELL AS  FOR ME  ITS GOING TO BE HARD  BECAUSE  THIS YEAR  FOR THE HOILDAYS   MY  MOM IS  NOT HERE TO  BE WITH ME  AND NEW MY FAMILY  AND I KNOW FOR SURE THAT I WONT  GET TO  SEE  LUKE  SO WHY IS IT GOING TO BE  ALL JOLLY  AND HAPPY   AND DANCING  AND SINGING  AND PUTING  TREE UP WITH LIGHTS  AND   EVERYTHING ELSE I JUST WISH  FOR THE  HOLIDAYS  I COULD  DO  SOMETHING   BUT I CANT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE  LUKE THIS CHRISTMAS, I GUESS YOU ALL  CAN SAY THAT IM NOT   HAPPY HERE ANYMORE, AND I’M  READY  TO  MOVE TO SOMEWHERE ELSE.

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This When You Know When You Truly In Love With Your Soulmate

This When You Know When You Truly In Love With Your Soulmate, God  I have  found my  soulmate  because,  I wake  up everyday  beside him  and all I can  do is  just smile, the talks that we have are so  deep this when you  know when you are  truly in love with your soulmate, because  of everything  that I have been through and still fighting on getting luke back, i just want to cry at times  because god im  truly  in love  with my soul mate  because he is the one that you have put in my life for a reason and once i  do get luke back i wont have to worry  about his  dad’s side of the family… God  if you  want us to move from lubbock  to another place than its  up to you  if you would wants to move. We  are  going to start looking on getting a  house of  our own and getting ideas so that way we can save money.

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THIS THANKSGIVING I’M TRULY BLESSED BY GOD

THIS THANKSGIVING  i’M TRULY   BLESSED  BY GOD….  BECAUSE YESTERDAY  JUST  BEING IN THE HOST PAIL  BROUGHT BACK THINGS THAT MY  FAMILY  WENT THROUGH, WHEN  MY  MOM  WAS  IN THERE  AND HOW  SHE WAS HOOKED UP TO  THE HEART MONTIOR AND HAVING THE IVY IN HER ARM AND  THE OXYGEN  ON HER, WELL THE MAN I LOVE VERY  MUCH  HAD  TO GO TO  THE HOST PAIL  AND  I WAS  TO SEE HIM BEING HOOKED UP TO THE HEART MONITOR  AND HAVING THE IVY  IN HIS ARM AND HAVING THE OXYGEN  ON HIM  AND ALSO WATCHING HIM GO  THROUGH THE PAIN THAT HE WAS  HAVING BUT I THANK GOD   HIS MOM AND  THE FAMILY WAS  THERE WITH ME  TO KEEP ME CALM  AND  WE WHERE HOLDING  EACH OTHER  ME AND HIS MOM  WHERE CRYING,  BECAUSE THAT’S SOMEONE THAT  WE BOTH DON’T   WANT TO LOOSE, SO  BOTH OF OUR  FAITH WAS BEING TESTED,  AND  THE DEVIL  WAS  TRYING EVERY WHICH WAY TO COME  AND MESS THINGS  UP  FOR US BUT WITH OUR FAITH  ME AND HIS MOM WE ARE BOTH THANKFUL  AND BLESSED FOR THIS THANKSGIVING, NO MATTER IF I DON’T  HAVE MY  MOM OR MY  SON LUKE THIS THANKSGIVING  I KNOW THAT THEY ARE BOTH WITH WE IN SPIT BECAUSE  OF GOD.   SO  NO MATTER  WHAT I KNOW BY  GOD’S  GRACE AND MERCY I WILL HAVE MY SON  BACK WITH ME AND HE  HAS A FAMILY   THAT IS READY FOR HIM, SO THANK YOU  GOD  FOR TRULY BLESSING ME WITH THE MOSTED AMAZING  FAMILY THAT I HAVE AND  THE MOSTED  AMAZING  MAN THAT I TRULY  STOOD BY TODAY  WE GOT THROUGH THIS TOGETHER AS A BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND  THAT MADE US  SO STRONG AND MADE US SO CLOSE AND NOW WE TELL EACH OTHER  WHEN WE GO SLEEP.

IN YOUR NAME I  PRAY AMEN 

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Missing My Baby boy Luke

Everyday its hard… that i don’t get to see my son that is now two years old… the last time that I was on here I was telling you all that I was about  to have luke and how much that my mom was so proud of me… that I gave  her another grandson..  and now she  is not here anymore.. she passed away on August 22nd of 2012. . Now its going to be  two years that she has been gone.. im still taking it hard but I know that she is in a better place… and   even though that right now im missing my baby boy luke… I know  that I will see him  soon.. right now my life has changed and im happy and smiling thank god everyday for the man that I have right now 

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Leftovers: A Poem

I really like that

Speaking Voiceless

A thing that remains after
something
is finished or ended.

What is                                    I was six,
left                                           at first.
over                                         He was
from rape?                               30-something?
                                                In a child’s eyes
The making of this dish           all men are
was heat                                  ancient.
in slow coils of electric
dark-haired arms
small limbs
like bird bones and a
fluttering heart.

Since,
my history grows like neon
mold, rainbows of color
sick twisting of life
on leftovers.

I am tired of taking
apart words to
find their meanings.
Left.
Over.

 

Written in response to The Daily Post writing challenge for this week,here. Poem by Annie Jadin, speakingvoiceless.wordpress.com.

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